Sabotaging myself and other issues...

I have decided that this battle is truly won and lost at the grocery store.  I have been determined to eat like a pig all week but have been saved from my own self-destructive behavior by the fact I have LOTS of healthy snacking options available at home.  Pigged out last night on Laughing Cow cheese, imitation crab and Arnold sandwich thins.  Total damage - 7 points.  Still not getting my exercise, but I plan to get my 10,000 steps today come Hell or high water.  I'll try to check in later...

Another losing week

Down another 2.4# this week.  And I only have three more months of consults before I can make my decision on surgery.
I also saw my oncologist today and talked about the surgery.  He seemed to think it was a fine idea and stressed the reversible nature of the procedure.  But he also likes what I've accomplished on my own and thinks WW would also be great.  Not much help from that front.
Started circuit training at the YMCA today - felt like a weakling wimp but it is good to be back to toning and building muscle again.

In unrelated news, the blog I've started at WW (365 days, 365 recipes) now has 4 followers and multiple comments.  I feel like a star!

Wednesday, ain't it grand?

Back to work, kids are in school and Rich is working the late shift.  No YMCA for Sam today so I'll have to do my working out at home.  Plan to get my 10,000 steps and spend at least 30 minutes on the elliptical today.
Feeling ambivalent about the surgery again.  I would love to make the Weight Watchers thing work and get to a healthy weight all on my own.  It was Rich's talking about watching Lap Band procedures and the success of one of his co-workers that got me thinking about the band.  I don't know...I wish I could talk to 4-5 people who have had the procedure and get their input... 

Just love a day off!

The house is clean, caught up on laundry and I even got the mending done.  Ate well and just need another 500 steps to be over 10,000.  I have gotten back on track but I've got to keep in mind that I was poorly behaved over the weekend when I weigh in on Thursday.

Started another blog on the WW website.  I'm going to do 365 days and 365 recipes.   Today was Eggs Florentine - a really yummy light riff on Eggs Benedict.  Just click here 365 days, 365 recipes and you should get there.

Slipping up

Had a bad weekend.  Just kept wanting to eat and didn't feel much like working out.  Had a dinner party at a friend's house on Friday night, ate too much then drank too much.  Then had a sausage biscuit from McDonald's on Saturday morning (and felt virtuous because I didn't get hash browns or stop at the much more evil Taco John's for a burrito and Oles).  In general, I just ate too much and exercised too little.  Almost like I was being too successful and felt it was necessary to sabotage myself.  Sigh.

TGIF

Getting ready for a busy weekend.  I'm down another 2.2# bringing my loss to a grand total of 16.8#.  Hoping to get another 3.2# off before Halloween - maybe even manage to slip under 255#.  Very much on track to be in the 230's for my "real" surgery consult.  Still thinking I will proceed with the Lap Band.

Yesterday at WW we were talking about portion control.  I really do think my problems stem from a combination of portion problems and fast food.  And, honestly, the band would force portion control.  Of course, I haven't really had issues with portions since I started back.  Let's just keep plugging away and make a decision closer to January...

Good Morning!

Wow!  It's been almost a week since I wrote in this blog - it doesn't seem that long.  I've been busy with work and running the kids around and just don't get to it.

Got on the scale this morning - 259.3.  Back in the 250's feels very good and now I can set my sights on getting UNDER 250 by Thanksgiving.  So far I am right on track for being in the 230's for the Lap Band surgery.  I admit that there is a part of me starting to think I don't need the surgery;  I can lose this weight with Weight Watchers and avoid the knife.  Maybe just the threat of the knife figuratively hanging over me will be enough to keep me on track.  This is, however, probably just wishful thinking.  I feel this way every time I go on any diet program...THIS is the time I will follow it through to the end...this is the time I will get myself into shape.And I just get tired of the whole process.  So that is where getting a Lap Band will be my solution.

The pedometer challenge is working well.  I was thinking while I was walking the track at the YMCA yesterday about getting my life to be, in general, an active one.  I need to find activity that I like that is feasible at my current weight.  I am feeling altogether too fat for dancing - I get out of breath which is a real drag for my frighteningly fit partners.  Also saw people rock climbing - too fat for that right now but will do it when I'm thinner!  But what to do now (besides walking and elliptical work)?  Going to keep thinking on it...

Also plan to take a one month photo and post that in the next day or two...